seriousness. breathing.

"I can finally breathe"
"This long of a struggle finally opened up my eyes.
Revolution's not easy with a civil war on the inside."
today, I figured out the seriousness in not taking things too seriously.
with exception only to breathing, that's one thing that is pretty seriously necessary so take it seriously..everything else though..really how serious do I have to take it? I don't. all I have to do is breathe and trust, let everything else just be.
I don't need to stress, worry or wonder, just breathe. and good news, all you have to do is breathe too. and you'll be just fine:]

whatEVER.

one of my least favorite ways to feel is confused.

when I get confused I get apathetic.

I think that is why the word whatever was invented.

so, WHATEVER.

I feel better now.

four.

Today I am thankful for some very important bestest friends.

I love you all and miss you.

I hope you are all having (or in some cases getting ready to have) a wonderful semester.

you are all beautiful.

and I am blessed to call you my best friends.

:] love.

try.

today I was inspired by an idea that is so simple.
this new year I resolve to simply try. and to be vulnerable, and to not just wonder but find out.
Because the worst that I can hear is no. and after all no is not that scary at all.
I will ask the hard questions and jump into things with both feet.
I will not be afraid of rejection. but rather rejoice in the opportunity to seek, to expand, and to have simply tried.

I will go out of my comfort zone and willingly and simply try without being afraid of failure.

gone country.

Thatcher is always fun. I was asked why I liked Thatcher so much today. and when I thought about it, it is true there isn't much to love..it is basically cowboys, indains and mormon kids. but these pictures explain much better than I could why I love it. I also (Meigen don't die) have decided I want to be a cowboy. .well, maybe at least hang around some. lately I am completely stuck on country music and the idea of a farm and an attractive boy in a cowboy hat and boots is becoming so appealing. Not to mention drama free. However that isn't going to happen anytime soon I am on my way back up the mountain tomorrow, so I guess I will have to settle for lumberjack. .it's kinda close to a cowboy..oh well.

One more semester til summer fun! I can do it. This semester I am going to be more outgoing and make more friends and enjoy the opportunity of being in college. And I am not going to worry about those boys that are further than ten minutes away;]

it was a good break, I am glad that I shared it with those that I shared it with:]

Happy Second Semester...here we go again:]

it's too early for this..

but I feel it coming already.

this break from school has been nothing short of amazing. but now I can feel it coming to an end.

one last week before everyone starts to go their separate ways, and I don't want it to end.

it's too soon. and I don't want to be in this deep.

but here we go, one last week to make this all count for something.

I am finding that letting going and holding on are two in the same.

"if I could tell you what's next. make you believe. make you forget..."

come on get higher.

I miss the sound of your voice And I miss the rush of your skin And I miss the still of the silence As you breathe out and I breathe in If I could walk on water If I could tell you what's next I'd make you believe I'd make you forget So come on, get higher, loosen my lipsFaith and desire and the swing of your hipsJust pull me down hard And drown me in love So come on, get higher, loosen my lipsFaith and desire and the swing of your hips Just pull me down hard And drown me in loveI miss the sound of your voiceThe loudest thing in my head And I ache to remember All the violent, sweet, perfect words that you saidIf I could walk on waterIf I could tell you what's nextI'd make you believeI'd make you forgetSo come on, get higher, loosen my lips Faith and desire and the swing of your hipsJust pull me down hardAnd drown me in loveSo come on, get higher, loosen my lipsFaith and desire and the swing of your hipsJust pull me down hardAnd drown me in Love miss the pull of your heartI taste the sparks on your tongueI see angels and devils and God, when you come onHold on, hold on, hold on, hold onSingin' sha la la laSingin' sha la la la laSo come on, get higher, loosen my lipsFaith and desire and the swing of your hipsJust pull me down hardAnd drown me in loveSo come on, get higher, loosen my lipsFaith and desire and the swing of your hipsJust pull me down hardAnd drown me, drown me in loveSo wrong, So wrong So wrong, So rightSo come on, get higherSo come on and get higher'Cause everything works, love Everything works in your arms.
-matt nathanson.



lyrics. (that blogger thought needed to be reformatted.) i love 'em.
I want some five time:] and I feel like a spot meeting should take place sometime soon.
I kind of feel like dancing. which brings me to a spot idea, I will share with you four soon:]
love.