Michael Kelso.

(aka ASHTON KUTCHER.)

is the love of my life.

If Michael Kelso was a real person, I'd marry him. mmhmm.

I just laughed my face off for like three hours watching thats 70's show clips on youtube.

undeniable.

"God loves who I am not who I should be."-adorable guitar playing yl boy.
isn't that amazing? yeah. It sure amazes me.


I am focused on You and me. And Your love and mine. And the Grace that is You.
Tonight was all about listening and the different ways that we listen.
I listen with my heart. And I promise to listen with my whole heart.
When I focus on You everything else falls into place. always.
You are undeniable.
"In this beautiful place, that's where I'll find God."
:]

lyrics for life.

music has a way of making me think, laugh, cry, and understand.
these are not so random lines from songs that are playing. & that I love.


"please be mine."
"all our hopes and our dreams will come true."
"You are the peace that calms my troubled sea."
"You are the light that shines and shows me the way."
"when my weakness is all that I can give Your gentle spirit gives me strength again."
"You're beautiful"
"I look out the window, the birds are composing not a note is out of tune"
"Why should I worry? You know what I need."
"And all of You is more than enough for all of me."
"You're my everything, still more awesome than I know"
"You satisfy me with Your love."
"you stand by me and you believe in me."
"loving things like you has wrecked my life, made me cry"
"loving things like you has made me lose my mind"
"and I can't figure out way I've been hanging on to all these things I've tried to leave behind me for long."
"GET OUT OF MY HEART, OUT OF MY MIND, I'M LEAVING YOU BEHIND!"
"and some day I promise I'll be gone."
"when all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small even in my darkest hour I will believe"
"I'll believe."
"Even if I'm all alone, I will believe."
"You're my refugee You're my reason, my strength."
"You're in my heart, You're in my soul."
"You're my true love."
"Why do we break the promises we make?"
"are we living for ourselves?"
"Don't give up on love and let it fall away"
"When did it become so easy to run from your pain?"


I love music and songs and bands and people and Love.
B and I are going on a faceless trip not this summer but the next. want to come?

ialwaysblogabout..

MY WEEKEND.
and this week I am feeling bullets.

• FRIday - meigen's gettotastic car. target. willy wonka. adorable. seanisafreak. denny's. videos from my family to B.
• SATURday - the mall with my sister. dad's. carwash. chipotle. driving with no direction. earthquake? finding the drive-in. ridiculasness making B vidoes til two am.
• SUNday - sleep in. clean house with gram. go to store and make dinner with family. basically be with family. talking with aunt laurel. a lot.

I made everyone around me listen to Christmas music ALL WEEKEND.

Going home makes me miss being home. becasue it makes me miss my family.

not very interesting when I write it down. and I took no pictures. I will dig deeper later. maybe?

I feel like being vague.

dearSELF.

My aunt sent this to me...

Before we embark upon the journey of finding the relationship that is right for us, we may want to take the opportunity to refine our concept of who we are and our ideas of what we want from life. That way, we are clearer on the kind of person we want to attract into our lives. Part of the journey of finding a mate is learning how to become our own mate. When we can learn to meet our needs without relying on someone else to complete us, we don’t have to form relationships from the space of needing our emptiness to be filled. We can also discover our intrinsic value, separate from what someone else might be reflecting back to us. Getting to know who we are and learning to love ourselves creates a solid foundation of self that we can bring to any relationship.

I think this is a good lesson for everyone.
I don't know about you but it is something I am working on. self love.
and knowing that God has an unconditional amount of all the love I could ever possibly need and want. He is more than enough.
I am content with this.












worn but not weary.

winterwonderland.

I just made a bomb Christmas playlist.
starting the day after Thanksgiving that is all I am playing...
if I can wait that long..
38 days til Christmas break!
and there is snow on the peaks. :] ahh!

"we'll frolic and play the eskimo way."

AtTheEndOfTheWeek.

Friday:started slowly. with trick or treating. but we got embarrassed after a few houses. then down town. then pizza. then young life party then the jewish frat party. then denny's with cute & nice strangers and a nine person car ride home. I had FUN.

Saturday:Rachel and I got up early and drove to ptown. got there a little after eleven went to lunch with my dad. cleaned and decorated for craig's party ALL DAY! finally showered and was a bunny (because bec & brandon were batman & robin too.) hung out at craig's party long enough to eat pizza then went to brandon's sisters house (after changing out of our costumes because no one else dressed up) played apples to apples with drunk kids. hahaa. and then meigen picked me up we tried to go star watching but the dumb grass was wet and I had to pee a lot. a lot.

Sunday: got up early again. and drove back up to Flag with Mom and Aunt Holly. showed them my dorm went shopping got some warm stuff. and some food. then went to lunch/dinner. then came back to my dorm said goodbye and went to bed super early.

It was a great weekend. filled with fun and lovely people .
hope yours was just as enjoyable. :]